"LOVE THAT LIVES IN THE HEART CANNOT BE SO EASILY TERMINATED BY TIME. EVEN THOUGH THE ENCOUNTER WAS BRIEF, ITS IMPRESSION SHALL LAST A LIFETIME. NO ONE CAN CHANGE THE DIRECTION OF LOVE THAT LIVES IN THE HEART. IF YOU HAVE LOVED, THAT IN ITSELF IS THE ANSWER."
B-nen
" So I have one question. If we can love someone so much? How will we be able to handle it the day when we are separated? And, if being separated is a part of life, and you know about separation well. Is it possible that we can love someone and never be afraid to lose them? At the same time, is it possible that we can live our entire life without loving anyone at all? That's my loneliness... I know just how bad loneliness feels. I fear it will continue to get worse."
My Family asked me, Do you know yourself? I asked Does it matter? They said No not really I said No, until now I'm still don't know who am I? They said you are no longer member in this family I guess it mattered.
My Professor asked me, Do you know yourself? I asked Does it matter? He said No not really I said No, Until now I'm still searching for who am I?. He said you're failed! don't dare to come again in my class. I guess it mattered.
My friend asked me, Do you know yourself? I said Does it matter? He said No not really I said No, Until now I'm still looking for who am I?. He said Don't call me your friend and from now on, stay away from me. I guess it mattered
My God asked me, Do you love yourself? I told him Does it matter? He said YES. I said How can I love myself? If everyone is upset to me. because I don't know who am I and what I am? He said That is the way I made you. My Son Trust and have Faith in me. When the right times comes you will find who and what you are And nothing will ever matter again...
That moment my eyes starts to cry, because... For the first time in my life something matters.
To all who read this.. My problema lang ako nung time n ginagawa ko to. Prolema sa family, Friends, saka sa School... But i have nothing against with my family and friends.. But honestly, siguro kahit ikaw! yap ikaw nga..Do you think. Do you really know yourself that much??
I post this picture, when I accidentally found it..and some unforgetable memories flash back to me.. It was taken during our field trip on highschool i think in the year of 2004! were on a Bus that time when the picture taken..
I remembered nung time na to..Morning palang I was very upset! at badtrip talaga ako, panu ung Assistant Principal namin pina upo ako sa dulo ng Bus! as in ako lang ung 3rd year dun and the rest na katabi ko puro lower Level na, ung iba p naman di ko close. Then it happen lahat ng Classmates at Friends ko nasa harapan ng Bus..
It was her na kumausap sa Assistant Principal, na kung pwede ako lumipat sa harapan, but unfortunately di pumayag at nagalit pa ung Epal na Teacher na un..So ng tiis na lang ako sa dulo ng Bus for the whole the trip.. haizt! bawat oras na tinatakbo ng Bus at bawat minuto na tinatahak namin, sa loob-loob ko nalulungkot talga ako..
But it was her who always ask me, Every hour saying " Uy Vin Ok ka lang ba jan?? Lipat ka na kasi dito kasya pa tayong tatlo dito." ofcourse, sabi ko, Ok lang ako, but deep inside I know I'm not. Actually gusto ko ng lumipat sa kanila, but that time I was worried, baka mapagalitan kami ng Assistant Princiapal, saka nung oras na un katabi niya ung Boyfriend niya, na friend ko hirap na baka mag selos jeje... So I decided na wag nalang talaga..
But not the whole Trip was ended so badly..Coz' Every time na bumababa kami ng Bus ung mga Classmates at Friends ko ang kasama ko.
Then after nung last trip, when everyone busy around taking pictures, nauna na ako sumakay sa Bus pagod na kasi ako, I am going to take a rest when someone called me, It was her again lumapit siya sakin offering some foods, and saying "Ok ka lang ba jan, baka pwede k ng lumipat samin tutal uwian na?" I replied with a smile on my face " oo naman, ok na ok!" again pretending I was fine, for her not to worry... then she said, " Vin kuha tayo pictures, ala pa tayong kuhang dalawa eh.."
Madami na kaming mga pictures simula ng trip together with our close frriends, but this one was the best and my favorite, It reminds me how sad I am that day! apparently it also reminds me how lucky I am to have a friend like her..
I felt guilty nga kasi I don't even thank her(ang sama ko nu!) But God knows how thankful I am for having such a sweet friends like her by the way her name was Marielle, but I call her Maye!
Why I love you that much? Why I do anything, sacrifice everything just to please you, and make you feel happy? Why I've always feel jealous whenever you talk to other people?Why I always want your attention?Why I always think of you whenever I am?And when my phone rings why I want your name to be appeared?
though I know you will never be mine, but I guess...
Hell i care!..I would like to share this funny, yet terrible experience happened to me during the day when was on my work for On the job training(OJT)In Excel_ecom( Comp. Shop at the Ever commonwealth)Usually I do Cashier, Customer service, and Redundant Typing of RESUME! GrRRrH....
It Happened on this July, I dont know the exact date pasensya n haha..Eto ung eksena!!(While i was Busy Watching Naruto Shippuden. one of the customer called for help.. when i look back he was looking at me..So I decided to help him, he was an Old British Guy..)
Old British: Can you help me to visit the website of Sky cable Phil. I want to compare it to other cable out of your country? AlviNeji: (Namutla!!.. panu ang aga aga Mapapasabak agad ako sa englisan!..syempre mga 1 min. muna bago ng reply haha..sabi ko) Sure Sir, let me handle it..(haha un lng naman nasabi ko ee nag isip pa...Then after ko makita ung site sabi..)Sir could you wait for me in a minute, i need to go back to my palce to finish my typing I'll be back dont worry..(To be Honest ala naman akjonh typing nung umaaga n un..tatapusin ko lng ung pinapanuod ko)Old British: Ok thank you, I'll wait for you..
Eto NAhh!!
(After 26 minutes I heard a loud Voice near at my back..when i look back..It was him the old Brirtish guy! Amf papalapit sa pwesto ko! Shouting in his loud voice saying!“What the kind of CRAP! Are you, I waited so long hoping you would come back! But you didn’t, How could you!..Shocked talga ako! it was my first time n mapahiya ng ganun..saka sobrang takot ko pa panu ang lakas ng boses nia parang wala ng bukas kung isigaw nia ung mga sinasabi nia!! nangliit talaga ako..Halos lahat ng customer dun sa shop nakatingin samin..bute unti palng sila mga 11 katao siguro.. That moment di ako makapag salita panu di ko gets lahat ng sinabi nia British ascent kasi haha the only words i rmembered was ung Crap!Apparently my co-worker named City helped me, hinarangan nia ung matandang hukluban n un..at kinausap then pinabalik sa pwesto nya at sya n ung ng assist… Thank God she helped me and everything went ok naman..But unfortunately andun padin ung takot ko..so I went to gaming Area kahit ayoko dun maingay kasi dun ee..
After ng ilang minute.. ala n ung old British and kinausap ako ni maam sabi nia tama naman daw ung ginawa ko sa pinapahanap nia..un lng sabi ko kasi babalik ako then di n nga daw ako bumalik..kea sya ngalit..and worst nkita nia ako nanunuod lng ng anime!!
That day sobrang na stress ako, kakaisip sa nangyare..and i felf so unlucky!!! Sbi ko nlng sa sarili ko di n ako haharap sa mga Kano! Hangang matapos ung OJT ko..para ala ng Problema..
" So I have one question. If we can love someone so much? How will we be able to handle it the day when we are separated? And, if being separated is a part of life, and you know about separation well. Is it possible that we can love someone and never be afraid to lose them? At the same time, is it possible that we can live our entire life without loving anyone at all? That's my loneliness... I know just how bad loneliness feels. I fear it will continue to get worse." - Mew
--The line came from the Film I admired most, the sweetest yet very sad story i ever watched in my whole liFe!..sorry i did not mentioned the "Title"(..basta thai Film xa.. )
-- To be honest I watched it Many times(16 times Actually, and if I had a free time I am going watch it over and over again di ako mag sasawa).. I still fell in love in the movie..and every time i watched it naiiyak padin ako,yes I did cry like a baby...I dont know why and how to explain it??but i really felt the impact of the story..lalo na ung mga character nabigyan nila ng justify ung pino portrait nila..It is very sad when the movie did not ended the wayIwant it, but it was a good ending.
--I can say all of this because this line caught my attention, and i felt so bad dahil agree ako kay mew..na I'm afraid na one day when i woke up, I live my whole life without loving anyone at all! and it will continue to get worse! the film always reminds me how "Lonely i am".. but im still hoping that one day i found myself contented to what i have.. and I know God has a good reason to all of this..
After I Watched it again and again... All I can say was this....The Greatest of them all is "LOVE".
"The Love of Family"
"The Love of Friendship"
"The Love of Lovers"
" And as long as you have love...you still have hope
